Detriment and the Birth of a new Nemesis

Well, boys. It's happened. 4chan has won, and the world shall thusly enter into a new age of debauchery and lifelessness. May as well legalise the donkey-raping-a-three-year-old porn now; Because we're on our way, and it's only a matter of time. Conservatism is thoroughly dead, and whilst I revel in that a bit, there's a good portion of the conservative doctrine that we liberals needed to have as a counterweight - And we won't have that conservative principle anymore. And whilst some of you may rejoice at that, keep in mind that pure, unadulterated liberalism can only go so far - At some point, the corruption catches up and forces everything to stagnate. Sure, the ideas flow more readily and far more quickly, but what quality do we sacrifice for the speed of new thought? When ideas flow that quickly, we don't take the time to discern the good ideas from the bad - Sure, we get the Internet a few years sooner, but we get the hackers that come along with it. We get furries, man. What the fuck. In an era when we need - NEED a strong, influential powerhead, we instead have inherited a mob - a cult, bent upon taking down "The Man" - Bent upon taking me down. That's me. I'm The Man. I'm the reason four year-olds can't smoke Cubans or have buttsex. I'm the reason you little retards can't drink or fuck until a certain age. I'm the reason you have to stand in line at the DMV so that *I* know that you have the ability to drive. Were it up to me, half of you wouldn't even be fit to live, nor would you have the freedom to do so. And this mob - they claim Scientology to be a cult... Well. Fuck Scientology, but I'll never side with Anonymous. This is one Anon who's a free agent. Go fuck yourself, faceless Internet. I'm off-limits.

Back on the off-topic for a bit. People fucking terrify me. I can't imagine that there are actually proponents of Socialism left, but moreso than that, I can't imagine how there are still racists left. I can't fathom how furries are still around. I can't at all grasp how people can think that smoking is somehow okay, or justifiable. I can't imagine that there are actually proponents of Anarchy. Fucking Anarchy. No one with any mind on their shoulders and a clear conscience can justify that. And I don't speak that as rhetoric, I speak that as believing that there is seriously something wrong with the folk who think that Anarchy is a valid style of living. There has to be. But that's the thing - They're all the fuck over the place. Everyone I talk to has their own opinion - They're like assholes, don'tcha know - and the insane majority of folk that have an opinion are just wrong. And don't get me wrong - I don't say that because I think that I'm magically right in the things that I think, but there are certain basic and fundamental truths about life and theology that just can't ever, ever be overlooked, but somehow, they get overlooked anyway. And that - THAT pisses me off. This world just doesn't make any fucking sense to me, it's getting to me.

But these fears, they're so predominant because I hold no recourse against them. Everything petrifies me now, from the threat of Nuclear War to the smallest, most mundane things - Even the smallest of societal ills infuriate me. For instance, I was at the supermarket the other day, and I witnessed a small child, alone, in the magazine rack. This child was no more than three or four, and he was pulling every magazine from the rack and tossing them about. Where was his mother, you ask? She was in the adjacent aisle, on her mobile, leaning up against her buggy. I simply shook my head and continued shopping. About ten minutes later, I saw the woman again, child strapped firmly into the child seat. I pondered, "Oh, good. She reprimanded him." But upon passing by the magazine area, the books and tabloids lay yet strewn about, some poor girl from the store's staff cleaning them up.

Now; insignificant as that may seem, this instance left me standing enraged. I literally shook in anger at this, and wanted to go pull that torpid bitch by the hair and drag her the fuck back there to clean her son's mess up. Whether she saw what her child had done is irrelevant - It's the thought that she didn't *care* what her child was doing. And I see such instances and far worse all the time. People running red lights and stop signs, people littering, people being generally nasty to one another, but now there exists a whole new level - Anonymous. The protests on the 10th went off without a hitch - I had a thought to hire a guy to wear one of those V for Vendetta masks with a bomb strapped to his chest to give Anon a bad name. But it wouldn't have done a thing, and that's sad. There's not much I can do but sit back and hope against hope that Anon doesn't affect me in my lifetime. Wooo. What an existence.

Here's the thing. Being selfless has no reward - No purpose, no incentive. Being a good person is a 'stupid' thing to do. And that also pisses me the fuck off. I've worked my balls off to do things the right way, and everyone else who can jump to the front of the line for doing the wrong crushes me. Such is life, ya?

I don't often understand the world. I have moments where I totally do, but with 4chan and Anonymous as prevalent as they are, I understand now less than ever. Everything that used to be wrong is somehow now right, everything past unfathomable now at the forefront of everyone's grubby little paws. There are no two ways about it - Anonymous needs immediate disbursement. 4chan needs to be shut down, along with all its sister-sites. The problem? Even doing that won't stop the bleeding. The trend is on its way - They have backups and backups for backups. Anon will find its way - they've all but taken over Youtube. I work rather closely with a couple fellows from LueLinks - A mimic of 4chan's lack-of-principle principle - Same stupid memes, same general retard idea, except not public - All nice and cloistered off, free from prying eyes. In fact, LueLinks probably frightens me more than 4chan ever could. Mostly because LueLinks doesn't have the Anarchy-at-work mentality and the whole "faceless" theorem that 4chan is based upon. But they do have the same "Moral Compass." Or lack thereof, right? Good part is that I have access to LueLinks, and I can keep an eye on them. And I have the passwords to a couple of the more respected members' accounts, so unless those change, I think I'll be fine on that end. As much as you want to cloister off, there's always someone like me who's willing to sink to the deepest levels to fuck your bullshit up. Good to know you're that fallible, right LL?

But beyond all that, beyond all this anectodal bullshit, can't you just feel it coming? Something bad on the horizon? I see a bad moon rising, all that? Something really bad is gonna go down, and I don't know when, but frankly, I don't want to be here when it all manifests. I ponder suicide often of late - And don't misinterpret - My life is rather wonderful most days. I'm by no means depressed (Well, I might have a tinge tonight, but that's neither hither nor thither), and I'm no mere teen who believes he has "problems" - It's simply one of the more appealing escapist options available to me. I don't quite know, I'm just having what seems to be an ever-increasingly difficult time justifying an existence here.

So, on to personal matters, yeah? This site I run, it's going down in flames. Not by my hand, although I could go into Leadership theory and passive example and all that, but the masses just don't want the type of leadership I'm dishing out. They're all ungrateful fucktards bent on ruining the community, and up until now, I had them firmly under control. But all it took was one post from a moderator, and all that broke down. Everything I had worked for four years building, down in flames in six-hundred thirteen words. I've changed my whole identity there - And the members know that when I change my identity that something bad is up, but this time, they don't care. No one even dares to venture a guess at my protestation. And that's sad. I ran the most pristine place on the Internet for four good years, and it was an amazing run. But the bastards got me down, so they say. Ah, well. Win some, lose some, ya?

What do I even say anymore? What the ballsing balls do I even say? It's such a disappointment, this Internet. And to know that it's only going to get worse and never better is such an awful prospect. Particularly for me. For those of us who own (Proprietary own, you fucksnausages) the Internet are fucking terrified of this shit. I can't imagine that you people think it's funny. Any of it. I don't get this generation at all, in fact. In all honesty, I don't want to bring children into this rampant shit-pile of a world we live in. Well, whatever. 5 AM. Time for crumpets.